[StraightOuttaCanadaEh]

This may sound trivial but how is your sleep?

Sleep deprivation (getting 6 hours a night or less) is behind almost all of the ailments that plague humans, including depression, suicidal thoughts, suicidal attempts. For example, the less sleep a teenager gets, the more likely they’re to commit suicide, and most importantly, carry it out to completion.

You mentioned drugs and alcohol. What kinds of drugs? I hope they’re not the kind that are supposed to help you sleep because the sleep they bring is not the kind you need. I hope you take the time to get at the root of what’s causing the health issues that you’re taking the drugs for and realize that the pills only treat the symptoms and not the underlying cause.

Notice I haven’t said anything about money or anything else. It’s important to understand that it’s not the problem. That is not what’s causing you to be depressed. However if you live a lifestyle detrimental to your health (lack of sleep, drugs, malnutrition, shift work), your mind simply focuses on the negative. The resulting depression is the manifestation of your physical state, not the other way around. So I hope you identify what that is and deal with the issue. Leave the drugs and get good sleep. Good luck!