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Originally Posted by Ultramaroon
Actually, yes. I've noticed.
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Originally Posted by humfrz
Yes. That's good ...... 
I just thought it's because you've been posting less ...... 
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Have been considering doing a copypasta on here of what I've written down so far. But its extremely personal, and I was in tears while writing it for the most part. So I'm not sure I'm totally ready to share it with the open public, might just go to a select few (only the FT86Club elite, of course) to get some feedback on how I can better organize it before I put it up in RT.
Its been a pretty painful process, and I kind of dread adding to it when I feel like writing. Battling mental health and addiction problems in real life is a lot less... Glamourous, I guess, than what TV and movies make it out to be. Its extremely liberating, but it's a lot of pain to relive when I put pen to paper, so to speak.
Its a really good outlet for me, but it's pretty raw and kind of embarrassing. My girlfriend saw me working on it and I couldn't even come clean with her about it. Though, I think it's more to do with how horrible of a writer I am than what I've been through. I've barely even shared anything of my struggles with my friends until recently.
The good news is, I'm feeling better and stronger than I have in years. It took a long time for me to realize that is ok to be hurting, despite me trying to champion mental well being during my time in the military to get rid of the stigma of combat stress reactions, ptsd, depression, etc. It really only took two close friends from the military taking their own lives to realize I had to do something about my own well being before I ended up taking my own life too.
Sorry for the heavy post, but it just feels good to admit that I haven't been alright for a long while and being on the road to recovery is a really big step for me in life.